I'm happy we are both doing exactly what we want. I don't like to think about what are limitations or freedoms per se. But I know that we still love each other and that holds a unbreakable bond between the two of us. I know that we won't hurt each other because we both still see our futures together. I'm glad that we are taking things slower and less committed, It gives back to our own life's and I think it's really important that we have that.
I'm sorry I haven't blogged in a while. I hope you really like this blog and after you read it we cuddle and stuff😮😏. But yeah I hope you are happy Hannah. I'm going to miss you a lot tomorrow an I hope you get a ride home tomorrow. You should bring an umbrella just incase... I love you Hannah and you are my everything:)

I sleep alone. I eat alone. And I am alone.
Not Having fun.

Man:(((

I wish you were going to be the first to post on my Facebook for my birthday.

Blogged :)

Why would I love you?
Because you are the the direct vision of beauty in human life. You are a living statue carved by god himself. Your presence will forever be known because of your thoughts and teachings. You are the person I know I can trust with anything and everything.

Why would I trust you?
I would trust you because I know that if I ever fall sick you will be by my side until I was well. I would give up my own life to save you if I ever had too. And I know you would do the same. I see our future so clear that I can almost feel it.

What do I see as my future?
I see a house. A thin and wood rolled house. The vintage house is Painted cream with a white picket fence kissing the edge of a rose garden. Green flowing grass in the middle, divided by a concrete pathway which is home to toys scattered. I can smell the crisp air in the morning and hear the buzz of the nightlife. But there is a lot more. I think about our future so often there is too much to describe.


I miss your blogs Hannah. I hope I get one for my birthday...
Also thank you for always being the Hannah I know. Independent, smart, and beautiful, are just some of the qualities you fit. You are really really beautiful with your hair cut and new clothes. :)

Post two

🐋 Finding happiness is not to far.
Withdrawing of the standards withheld.
Holding what ever life gives you helps,
But giving out what you are given completes.
My goals: yoga every morning and buy a wet suit with tax return.
My ambitions: learning to surf and finding a new friend.
My general thoughts: motivated to be better and challenge myself to every obstacle.

The past few days I've barely been able to eat anything. My stomach feel empty but I can't even swallow anything with out feeling sick

I sit here and watch the click alone in the dark. I wish I had friends

I'm a horrible person

I wish I could find a really sexy girl who would flirt with me And sit on my lap and ask me to have sex all of the time... Maybe some girl will pass some notes with me soon. Of course I wouldn't have sex with her but the daydreaming man. The daydreaming.

Man

I'm a fucking jealous prick:/ I'm jealous.

I wish I could make you feel the way he makes you feel.

Shitty blog numba 2

You shouldn't read any of these but I can't hold it in.

Shitty post don't read

I said I was hanging out with a coworker before work?
You get sad that I'm not telling you things.

I get sad when you talk about fucking another, better , sexier, more passionate and fun guy?

And now I should not be sad about this?
I didn't know all of this was going on.

Man I wonder how I feel. Shit shit shit. I am shit. I might as well find someone who likes me and melts when I touch them. It shouldn't be hard

Oh wait! I love you Hannah! And no one compares to you. I guess I'll just rot

Blog 2

Well I'll just keep letting out my irrational thoughts for now.
Chris is no longer the most beautiful things in her eyes

Chris is not longer the best guy In the world

Chris is Second best in my life

I still love you but there's this guy who flirted with me one day, so now we need to take a break and I'm going to cuddle and flirt and talk to my friends about how a need a dickperiod.

Fuck you Chris and your feelings

Blog 1

This is all so fucking insane. You find a new friend. Then we go on a break. Then he turns out to be this stud who makes you feel like Niagara falls... Really dude like I feel like you've left me for another guy who is this perfect, handsome guy who wants to have sex with someone he is emotional with. And wants the girl to have pleasure. He makes you melt and I make you sad. I am shit. A big pile of shit. I look like shit. And make others feel like shit. Why would you want to go back out with me when you can have this guy who caught you by surprise. You didn't know there was Better than me. But there is.
Fuck my life.

True lovers unmasked
Tomorrow might show the end
Today might show the light.

Reminiscing..

Night.

When, "your the only person I need" turns to " I need others for happiness". It's time to move on. I see your future and I see mine if this continues. It's okay. I don't think I was cut out for love anyway

I want to see how it goes for now. In the end I do wish for us to not be apart. But for now we can do things apart from each other as hard as its going to be. I think that we will discover our new found love for each other. This is the first time we showered apart and we will have a lot more first time aparts. I hope we don't end at all and we resolve this. I wish I never said any of the things I did starting a week ago. I was being stupid an protective of our love. I know that you wouldn't have run off or did anything stupid now. And I should have trusted you then. I'm deeply sorry and I don't expect forgiveness for how badly I treated you.

Please blog something sweet.

I really care for you and I want to do anything to make you completely happy with me. I really want to go to the movies and watch a good movie and cuddle since its Friday. But maybe if you don't we could always stay home and watch on demand movies and cuddle in bed. I miss the feeling of us cuddling and be so close to each other. The butterfly's and warm news. I miss it a lot. I love you Hannah

I had a dream last night. Me and you were sitting in the miata and we see a girl go by and we pointed and laughed. She came over and started yell at us for pointing and laughing at her. I yelled over and over at the top of my lungs for her to leave us alone. Then I tried to drive away but a cop stopped us. Then me and her had to apologize. I think she was mad at us also for my lawn not being mowed but I told her I didn't live at my parents Ouse anymore. It was really odd..

, I can't help but remember this feeling. I feel like a edge-torn, burnt and blotched love story that has fought it's way through anything and has taken everything that has come its way. I feel like I'm getting smaller, like that story is being crumpled and rapidly becoming less. I feel thrown, like this story has been tossed in the can and with out a second look, forever fallen into a hole with slick sides and tall walls. This story, my feeling, is hard. It gives me aches in every place and makes my heart drop. I'm scared and alone. I'm worried and ashamed. I can only see from my tin made prison a person whom I will give my life to have. Start to write a new story. It starts the same and is written on the same paper.

I don't want to believe this feeling but it's hard. I want to show you that this love story still has a blue flame. I look at myself and see failure. What can I do to change this. I need you back. I can't let you go. I miss you. I want to have endless things to talk about and take you everywhere to bring a smile on your face.

I think back to our first month together. How could we just let ourselves say that breaking up or being away from each other could even be remotely a good thing? What have we become saying these things? People who love each other so deeply and passionately would never even think about saying these things

I'm everything but happy and there is a million things going through my brain at once. Ill say stupid things and not have anything to say at all. Please bare with me, I'm not the same.

My heart hurts. Does yours?
I feel alone. Are you still here?
I feel hopeless. Do you?
I'm hurting inside.
I'm worried.
I'm shaking.
I miss you.
I miss us.

Boo!

I haven't blogged in so long. And I miss making love with you and cuddling together lots. I want you to know that I love you so much and because of that I want to do everything I can to keep you. I want you to also know that I'm completely okay with moving to Santa Cruz. I don't mind where I go as long as I'm happy. And I am. Another thing is I don't know if I want to go completely In to business .i want a job that dosen't come home with me. I don't want to drive a Lexus or wear a suit. I want just want to work somewhere that is a good pay and has me work hours similar to yours. I don't want to worry so much about my future career. I want to pay more attention to us and where we are heading. I love you boo and you are the best person in my life. I want us to be happy and excited together.
I love you Hannah banana boo and I hope you have a good day today! Ill come visit soon!