I hope you one day realize how beautiful you really are. So many guys would kill to date you and talk you. You really are a all over beautiful person Hannah. Don't let your self think that you don't have potential. When I look at you, I see a beautiful, strong, and caring woman. You don't even have to wear make up or dress up at all. You are naturally beautiful in so many ways. Everyday I see you I think I'm very lucky to have you in my life. I'm glad to have such a beautiful girlfriend inside and out. Even when we do start to wrinkle and age, I will still think you are the prettiest girl on this planet.

I'm glad you fully trust me again Hannah. I miss you a lot and I feel like this week will be great. What do you want to do today? I hope your mom stays up in sanoma another day or two. It's really cozy and warm sleeping with you. If she does we can have all day together :D. Also which day is the day I can come over at 5? You should pick one:) I think on Sunday I'm going to wake up at 4:30, get two coffees and roll a billion larges and extra larges:). Then hopefully I can leave at maybe 5pm. Haha. :( well yeah anyways I'm going to miss touching your body all over after our showers. And laying semi naked in bed with you. I know we fit together so perfect in my room. I can wait to transfer it to humboldt and combine it with yours. I have to buy lots of boxes:3 and string

I hope you had just as much fun as I did this weekend. Friday was kind of rough for me, with the whole not being able to sleep thing. But when I was at the hospital all I could think of was you. How we went there before and how we were waiting in that room before. I called you that night because I really wanted to talk to you and here your voice that night/morning.
Somehow I found the strength to wake up before noon Friday and get all the goodies for our bath. I really wanted it to be something out of movie. I think I pretty much accomplished that and I really enjoyed the bath with you that night. I missed sleeping naked with you too. That night was a perfect. Saturday was a little bumpy but I every time we talk we only get stronger. I will try my hardest to wake up for you and do more thing for you to keep you around. I know that you would do anything.
In our future, let's invest in a big bath tub:)
I really love you hannah. I can't wait to get another car soon. We are very over due for a trip to Santa Cruz or SF. Don't worry to much about rebuilding our nest. I'm sure we can do it. We ca do anything If we really want it. I love you

Always,
Chris

Hey I hope you had a awesome day today. I was really hoping to walk in on a class full of people and give you the flowers. But aw well haha. It was still something you didn't expect and something I really liked doing, you seemed very happy I brought you flowers. I hope tomorrow Is just as fun as today was. I really do hope you enjoyed it Hannah. I really love you and can't wait to see you tomorrow. After I get off work let's lay in bed and watch that movie than go to your house if I can and play temple run or watchers movies or just cuddle and kiss each other. Or you know we could just do all of the above:) I hope you know that I want to make you happy because I want you to stay. You made my life new and improved ten fold. I will try my best to keep you happy because you make me the happiest man on this planet everyday your here with me.

Hey boo. I don't like it when you sad. I still feel like this is still my fault you lost a lot of your friends and you have to go through all this stupid stuff with Adrienne and her friends. I miss you a lot and I want you to know I'm always here for you no matter what. Please don't feel like you have no one. I'm always here for you and you'll always be here for me. As long as we have eachother we have someone to lean on. I miss you smell and I miss when you lay your head on my. Chest. Soon we will be able to live together and be together no matter what. Please stay strong through all of this. I know its hard but know that in the end we will be happy together. Know that soon we can have our own little life with a house and child and what ever we want to put in it. I love you Hannah and I'm looking forward to our future together.

You saved me when I was sad. You brought me back when I thought I was broken beyond repair. She broke my heart and stringed me along. I was a emotional mess wish for something that wouldn't even make me happy.
You are my angel. You took my heart even though it was cracked, torn, and beaten until I couldn't even love any more. You decided to love me even though you knew a lot of people would hate you for it. You followed your heart. You could have chosen anyone you wanted but you choose me. I will never thank you enough for saving me from what I was becoming. I hated who I was and what I was doing with my life. I had no plans for my future. Until you walked into my life I was falling in to a hole. I'm glad I have you in my life, I'm glad you took me away from what I was becoming.
You are right. In my old relationshit I felt censored and felt scolded a lot for say what was on my mind. I'm doing the same to you and it isn't good. I really want to genuinely stop. I need to stop basing my feeling and the way I act toward you on my old one because that one was not a happy one. I will try very hard to open my heart to you more because I just want us to be happy. I don't want anymore sad moments and I don't want to argue. I want us to discuss together what we miss or want.
I want Adrienne to leave you alone as stop talking about us. I've confronted her already. But just like you hate hate confrontation I hate being mean to people. It's not In my nature. If she pushes it too far than I'll yell and curse and tell her that you don't like it. And. I hope it works. I hope that you confront her too. I want both of us to deal with this.

My love

I'm sorry you've had to go through all this pain Recently. I really wish it could all stop and we both could be happy and live life how we want to. I want to do badly live with you and be with you every minute of my life. I wish we never had problems with my ex and she could stop talking about us and stop loving me. She is hurting both of us. I want to hide under a rock with you and get away from all of the problems. I don't think you should worry about your weight and appearance as much I don't see anything wrong with you. I think you were pretty at the water polo game and I still think the exact same thing. You are beautiful and I wouldnt trade any bit of you for the world. I really miss you and talking about my day to you, and hearing your day. I wish your mom didn't ground you. I think tomorrow I will roll fast so maybe we could hang out after school or during brunch for a little. I hope she forgets about it soon. I hope you understand that I love you and I will never leave your side. I'm sorry I blew up on you and wanted to go home. I don't want to leave you crying or sad and I don't want to ether. I want to move away because I'm serious with college and I really want to live with you because I love to be around you 24/7. I'm not moving because of her. I'm moving because I want to get an education with you and live a happy life with you and have our children be happy with there life. I don't want to censor your life. I love who you are and what you do. Just don't hit me with a water bottle really hard and say you wanted to do it all say and I will be okay and not angry. I love you Hannah and I'll never leave okay?

My love

I wonder how long it will take for you to see this... I miss you Hannah. I miss waking up with you in the morning. And then be next to each other 24/7 and kiss and say sweet things too eachother at midnight. I can't wait to grow old with you and have a child. I hope you get ungrounded soon so we can love each other again. I miss you laugh and tickling you. I'm excited to take a bath you. I really hope you get to sleep over:3

I can't believe you would say that. I take a lot of pain. You hit me all the time. This one was intended to hurt. You even said you wanted to do this all day. All day? I feel like shit hannah. I feel like you treated me like shit. I feel like nothing. I don't even know what to think. I dont know what to feel. I was going to stay up till 12 and be with you even though I worked all day and have work tomorrow at 5. Even before you said that if I slept at your house you'd tell me to leave. I can't believe you hit me that hard and said that. That is the most hurtful thing I've ever felt in long time.

I be here at the bank all bored so anyways. How are you Hannah. Are you happy? I was thinking about how great it would feel to let my parents or your parents hold our kid for the first time. I would be very proud and happy

Hey you the idea of us getting matching tattoos sounds fun. I really want to do that hotel thing for my birthday it's sound like a lot of fun and we can shower together and go to beach a bunch of times. Hopefully your mom let's you go though. But more important is that you should try and borrow a dress soon for massimos. I really want it to be fun and special.

I MISS YOUR BLOGS

Ouch my finger tips hurt. They always hurt when I bite them too much. Anyways I think you're really pretty. I love to look at your face and I love your sort of left set smile :) its really cute I think. And your eyes are always so big and caring. I also can't wait for you to get more unique ear studs. I kind of miss your nose ring too haha It made you look tough. I wish it was summer again. I miss seeing you in t- shirts even though you still will wear sweatshirts in the summer. :( you pull off t-shirts quite well. And there's a reason I haven't washed your jeans yet haha but I'll do it tomorrow. Hopefully. My hands smell like clean laundry... Hm well I really love you Hannah and we should rent more movies together. You pick out really good ones. I also hope my car isn't super badly damaged so we can go to Santa Cruz and sf more soon.

Hey you I really think your cute and miss your blogs. You write really amazing blogs. you look really cute in your butt pants. You have a really defined butt, it's all pretty and not saggy or anything. It sits perfectly on your two thighs and extends so the eye can see but not to far that it surpasses your back bone. Yeah so your butt dude it is awesome okay bye

Mmmm yep I feel it. Really bad when you don't even have the person you love in the same room :/

Hey hannahboo. I miss you lots and i love you. I can't wait for another weekend up at point Reyes with you again. I like how they automatically put us together :3 I really want the boat house and overlook again. It's really fun. I miss your pretty eyes and your warmth at night. I miss hugging you from behind and kissing your neck. I hope tonight it fun. I'm going to be a wall flower with you :)

Hey Hannah. My stomach kind of feels weird. I think I put to much sugar in my. Espresso:( but other than that I hope you felt more loved this morning than yesterday mornings ride to school. I wish I had someone to take me to school with oatmeal and coffee on Fridays :) oh yeah its Friday already! Woohoo! I don't remember if you have to come home early tonight but if you do I hope I can still hang out at your house . Well hurry back my love because I miss you lots.

Hey boo. I hope you feel better soon. I'm sorry you lost your friends. It somewhat was because of me though. I didn't know and neither did you. I'm still sorry that it happened. Well I hope today is fun. I don't care what we do, we can lay around and do nothing as long as we can talk and be happy. You should finish your studying soon so we can snuggle and kiss and be happy.

Hey Hannah:)

Don't worry about what your mom said. I'm sure we will be okay. It is tough to handle a job, house, and school; but we just have to plan it right. If our work is in the morning then we work nights. Or then other way around, or if we work one day and school the other. I'm sure we will be fine and won't have to move back at all. Just keep saving money and we have to call places in Humboldt a month or two in advance to get jobs. I don't think community college will be all that hard for us. It will be tough but we can handle it. I love you so much. And I can't wait to live with you. Soon we can do all things we've ever wanted to do

I miss youuuu. I hope you become a writer. I like the things you write. And I hope one day you write a book about two people in love who grow old and live happy and have it based on us. I still haven't a clue what I'm going to be. So I guess my major is undeclared for now. I have a feeling it will be very hard for you to get a job in the next month. And I also find it hard that your mom will leave Linda's. I hope you don't get kicked out though or get taken away. If you do have to be a foster child I will fight my hardest to be with you and help you. We're in this together. Even if I have to adopt you for four months

i feel depressed. i don't know. I wish you could just live me already. i really miss you a lot and want you and me to live in house together. i hate that your mom is making you spend less time with me now. i want us you just live together and go to college together. i really hope these next 5 months go by really quick or that your mom lets you spend more time here. i love you hannah. i feel down :( I dont know why. I think its because i feel bad that i left all aroused :( well im going to go eat food. i hope you come out there and give me a big hug.

Well since your not Gunna blog until I do here's a blog :) and some how you always find these super quick. I think this past week and weekend andddd Monday was the best. When ever we spend more then five days together it makes me feel like we live together. Which is good because after the five days I'm very happy and you seem pretty happy too. It really is coming down to it. We are about to move in together and go to college. I don't think we will fail and have to come back home. We just have to be smart an know what we can afford. I'm going to start saving a lot of money considering we now need a car. Hopefully we can all find jobs relatively easy. I love you and want to see you today. I miss you a lot boo.

Man today was pretty fun! I don't know what you're talking about with all the bad weather an nothing happens stuff. I had a lot of fun though Hannah. I could have easily just let you go with only Peggy and not have gone up at all but nope I'm glad I get to spend this time with you. Kind of sucks I have no more car though... Guess I'm biking places. Since its winter don't expect my dad to let me take the chevelle a lot. Also I might get never ending crap about oil changes and what not -.- ugh. This en of the year has been bitter sweet so let's make this new year awesome together. Also we shall forever kiss on that hill in the civic center :) no matter what we are doing or where we are, we must kiss there.